Friday, 16 December 2011

Home


Well, today was the day.  We woke up for sunrise and spent the entire day on the beach and in the waves! There was sunshine all morning, and great body boarding waves all afternoon. It couldn’t have been a better day to say goodbye to this country and this area that I’ve come to know and love. 

I’m thinking that this will be my last blog entry, which is a little sad because I’ve had such great fun writing it and keeping you all up to date on the amazing happenings of a family on sabbatical, but at the same time, I know the writing doesn’t have to stop here. There’s so much more that will come out of these experiences when I get home, and when you guys get sick of hearing my stories I’ve got a pen and paper that will soak ‘em all up! There’s so much that I’m worried I didn’t write down, so much that I’ll forget, so much that I didn’t notice, and so much that I didn’t take for all that it was. Despite all of my worries I’m beyond excited to go home and see how my new found knowledge, love for people, and ideas on the world change the kind of person I am back home at school and in my city.

South Africa was so different from Europe, not only in culture and in geography, but in people too. We were able to build relationships with so many wonderful people, and that’s the bittersweet part about saying goodbye. The people we’ve met here will stay in my heart forever, and I don’t think they realize what an impact they’ve made on my life. The love and compassion of the health team, Karen’s simple gestures of love, Zulu prayers of boys that brought rooms to tears and people to their feet, every child without shoes, young men who are the future of their community, the joy of Zulu dances, little black fingers holding my white ones…  Just moments, and things people did, and things that I saw that changed my life. I don’t think the people at the Seed of Hope understand how much of a difference they’ve made. The kids don’t understand how much I loved having them play with my hair or teach me songs, and the staff don’t understand how their selfless work and love has changed my idea of the person I want to be. There are so many people who I won’t forget and who I hope to see again someday, thriving and changing their community, country and world one day at a time. In the end, I wasn’t there to help them, they were there to help me become a better person.

There is so much love here, and I pray that I’ll be able to carry this South African love home with me and share it with the people in my own community. If there’s one thing that South Africa has taught me it’s that we’re all people, and the more love you show towards others the better. No matter their race, age, gender, social or HIV status… Just love.

I’ll think about my Seed of Hope family every day as I wake up to the snow in these next few weeks, and many days after that I’m sure. These brave, strong, beautiful kids will be framed on my wall and kept in my heart as I go home and regain a certain normalcy in my life. Sezwe, and Sannelisiwe and all of the lovely girls who held my hands and did my hair, they won’t soon be forgotten.

‘Home’ by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes is my favourite song ever (I swear I’ll walk down the aisle to it someday) probably the theme song for the trip, and quite an appropriate song for the place I'm heading tomorrow... Home. I’ve heard Lauren hum it many a time, Adam has the whistling part down pat, and I’m convinced that mum and dad could even sing a couple lines if they tried. “Home is wherever I’m with you” was right, as I traveled with my family and we set up little “homes” everywhere we went. As I’ve traveled, my homes have expanded. I had homes back home at camp and in Calgary, then I felt like I had a home in Paris, with the language, history, architecture and writers that I love, but now I feel like I have a home here in South Africa because of the people who I’ve grown to love so dearly. I’ll miss them every day, as I head back to my true home, in the ice and snow.

The pang in my chest and the tears in my eyes are telling me it’s time to wrap it up and finish packing.

Thanks to all you lovely folk for keeping up with my blog over these four months. Can’t hardly wait to see you all.

xo

Alanna
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Saturday, 10 December 2011

December

People sometimes hurt in December. Lost loved ones are missed, the pressure is on to finish the semester of school, families struggle financially, loneliness becomes harder to ignore, cars get stuck in snow, and passports get held at borders and people don’t make it home for the holidays. Although department store Santa’s and eggnog market Christmas and it’s month as a time for cheer, it sometimes doesn’t happen.

This month so far has been a rough one for the community of Bhekulwandle, as another young life was taken on December 4th, the day after Cebo Xulu’s funeral. A little 6-year-old boy, who had attended the Christmas party at the Seed of Hope earlier that day, was hit and killed by a car. It’s so sad to think of a little boy, who had just had a fun day with his friends, gotten a new toy, and had a bright pink popsicle in his tummy, could have it all taken away from him so quickly. That same weekend, the mother-in-law of one of the Simunye teachers past away suddenly. There’s so much loss in this community, and it’s heartbreaking. With AIDS, hate, accidents and poverty, people are dying every day in the Toti area, and loss begins to feel less like loss and like something much more ordinary. December is proving to bring much pain to Bhekulwandle this year, and it just proves that things are rough all over.

Sometimes I think that when I get home, nothing will seem like a problem to me. All of the things I used to worry about seem like trifles when I’m here. I have to read the back of Portia de Rossi’s autobiography, or PostSecret to remind myself that we have problems in North America too, just different ones.


Yesterday was Karen’s final going away party with the community and the staff from the center, and it was beautiful. Mum, Adam and I (Dad and Lauren are currently at the Women’s Softball Championships in Cape Town, lucky ducks!) went and helped set up as well as attended the party, and spent what was most likely our last afternoon at the Seed of Hope. The crowd Karen attracted was quite impressive, and the Simunye room was packed tight with people from the community, young and old. There was beautiful singing, and many stories and poems about Karen that were so touching I’m pretty sure I had goosebumps for the full 3 hours. Karen just really poured her entire heart into the community, a community that wasn’t even her own, and it was so awe-inspiring to see the effect it had on the people of Bhekulwandle. There were many tears of sadness shed over Karen’s leaving, but also so many tears brought on by thankfulness for the influence she had on people. One of the main things that Karen did was just being there for people. Karen was there for the sick with prayer, love and rides to the hospital, and she was there for the youth of the community by teaching them how to be leaders, how to believe in themselves, and how to set good examples for future generations. She gave all that she had, her time and her car and it made such a difference in the community and in people. It was amazing to see what an impact those things made on the people of the township, and I pray that she has inspired them to be there for each other and make a difference in Bhekulwandle as she has.
If I can apply the same loving spirit that Karen has when I get home, even in my home town, it could make a difference. Showing people that they are individuals of value and putting other people before myself is something I’ll strive to do more of, all because of Karen.

Something else that I noticed at the party was that Karen receives something out of her work that many (especially in North America) don’t, and that is seeing that your life is making a difference in the world. And yes, if you’re a believer in the butterfly effect, your life is changing the world in whatever small way it can, but you can’t see it. You could see Karen’s difference in the fresh-faced, confident, capable youth of her Live Out Loud program, and in the old gogos who are raising six children by themselves and had received Karen’s love and caring. As a result, Karen is so wealthy with love, friendship, and appreciation, and seeing that made me reassess what I really wanted from life. In my ‘Canadian Dream’ I had always dreamt of success. Be it a go-getting journalist, or an organized and talented film producer, I knew I wanted to do something that I enjoyed, and that would allow me to drive a cute car and shop at Anthropologie on a regular basis. Just another romantic idea about how fun and easy my life should be. And as much fun as having a downtown apartment, and iPhone, and a bi-weekly pedicure would be awesome, it’s not the kind of wealth that makes you feel like your existence has been beneficial for the world.

Being in South Africa, and even in reading some Hemingway, I’m starting to see the beauty in a life lived for others. I’ve seen through so many people that happiness isn’t based on the size of your house or the type of car you drive (although functioning cars would be nice… cars break down on a weekly basis down here). There’s something romantic about living with the essentials, being content with having all you need and decreasing the amount of things you want, and just loving people. Opening your home to people who need it, mentoring people, encouraging them and showing them their worth… It’s a lovely thought and however impossible it seems, someday someone will write a biography on Derek Liebenberg and you’ll see how it can be done.
This realization about spiritual wealth is making me wonder what I can do with my life in order to achieve it someday. I truly believe that writing can make a difference, as I can list off a couple dozen books, articles and poems that have changed my life. But change from behind a type writer is not as personal as one might like. Whatever I do, I will strive to let all that I do be done in love and try to give my time and my life to people who will benefit from it.

Thank you a million times, Karen for the difference you have made and have yet to make in so many lives. We wish you all the best and we love you!


Only 8 days until we’re home and I’m still torn. I love this country, and the people I’ve met here, and would stay here as long as I was useful if I could, but I can’t. There’s much for me to do in the ice and snow of the city that first stole my heart; there are people to love, things to create, stories to tell, classes to pass, changes to make, goals to meet, coffee dates to be had, things to be said, and experiences to have in my home town using the knowledge and perspective I’ve acquired on this trip. It’ll all be very exciting. Things will definitely be different when I get home, which will take some getting used to (who would have thought life back home would go on without me?), but I’m excited to see how things have changed, and to see how I’ve changed in relation to home while I’ve been away.

So we’re gonna live it up in our last week here, soak up the sun (please no more rain!), see some sights, and prepare ourselves for home.

xo

Lil ‘Lanna

Monday, 5 December 2011

Christmas and the Gorge

We've had a busy couple of days, but it's been so fun!

Yesterday was the big Christmas party, and it was everything I could have wished it would be. The sun was shining, the Simunye room was decorated, all of the games supplies were set up in time, and even though the date had to be changed to a Sunday, there was an awesome turn out! My parachute station turned to sheer chaos from the start. I had all of these great clever games planned out, but with a language barrier, and short attention spans, my games quickly turned into throwing a bunch of play pit balls onto the parachute and flinging them off. The kids loved it and so did I, and it was a colourful, beautiful, mess.

The day was filled with singing, and food, and presentations, and dancing, and games, and a visit from "Father Christmas", and presents! Watching the kids open their presents was fun because they were so excited and it was cool seeing the presents we helped pick out and wrap be put towards such great joy.

It was also a little bit of a sad day, because since the SOH is being closed for the summer over here, I most likely wont see these kids again. It's been so amazing getting to know them, and having them give me hugs, or teach me Zulu words, or ask for pushes on the swing. They're all such sweet kids, and I hope they'll keep their friends and knowledge they've acquired at the Seed with them the rest of their lives so that they can become amazing leaders in their community and their country. Saying goodbye was a teary affair, and I hope that when I come back someday I'll get to see some of these kids all grown up and awesome. I'm already planning a trip back and I CAN'T WAIT! I love this place and these people.

Immediately after the party, we packed up for an overnighter to Oribi Gorge with Heather, Caleb, and her friends Joe, Judy and their son Israel, who Caleb calls "Baby", which is pretty adorable. We braaied last night, and played lots of tag and hide and go seek with the boys. Caleb is hilarious, and his accent makes it only more so! He's always finding little creatures and showing them off. "Look he-ah, Baby! It's a caterpillar!" Haha he's always good for a laugh and a frog sighting.

This morning we went on a hike along a river, and amongst many awesome things, we saw crazy plants. bugs, rapids, trees and a dead mongoose! The weather was awesome, and it gave me a chance to justify the runners I brought along with 12 other pairs of shoes on this trip, so that was good! We drove around a game park and saw lots of giraffes, impala, wildebeest, and zebras, and then had a picnic lunch. We then drove along possibly the bumpiest, dirtiest excuse for a road I've ever seen to get to a suspension bridge that crossed the gorge. It was pretty scary to walk across, but so fun at the same time, and Lauren (who's super afraid of heights and normal bridges) even went across! So proud!

It's been a fun two days, but I'm exhausted and ready for sleep and some down time this week.

2 weeks 'til we're home. Wild.

xo

Alanna

Musa MCing the presentation (can you find me? one of these things is not like the other...)

One of my favourite boys with his present. He's so sweet. :)

I'm going to miss my friends!

The whole gang on the hike!

Caleb and I

Dad, Adam and I on the suspension bridge.

Friday, 2 December 2011

16 Days: Fragments from South Africa


I just finished A Moveable Feast, and Hemingway just writes in interesting, but mostly unrelated chapters, so this is what this will be. I feel like I haven’t written as many blog posts from SA, and I think it’s just because so much has happened, and I’m only beginning to process little pieces of it. So here are some of those partially processed pieces.

How can it be that there are only 16 days until we’re home? I have a pit in my stomach just thinking about the cold of Calgary and actually having to make school a number one priority. To be honest, I’m surprised at how much I love South Africa and don’t want to go home. I’ve always fancied myself a Europe girl, and I think I am, but I also love so much about this place. The sun, the people, the history, the ocean, the languages and the singing are all amazing and I will miss them dearly.

If you’ve been reading my family’s blog, you’ll know that last week was a rough week. There was the hoe visit, and the little boy Sezwe who touched us, but gave us heavy hearts for the children of this community and this country. Then, on the 24th, we received the news that a boy in the community, well known by the Seed of Hope staff was stabbed to death the day before on his 18th birthday. It broke our hearts all over again, and the staff and even some of the kids who knew him were pretty shook up. So many of these young men aren’t making it past 25 because of all of the hate and violence that goes on in these communities. It’s not just HIV that’s killing people here, its hate. I look at the teens in Musa’s after school class, and the little boys on the playground, and I hope that the center has touched them in a way that will cause them to live in a way that is different than the example that has been set for them by the older boys in the community. I pray for the boys every day, and hope that their generation will be a strong one that will be a shining light in their community.

The young people I’ve met at the Seed are amazing. They’re so much fun, and so full of life and energy, and I hope they put their whole hearts into doing something amazing with their lives. In Musa’s class one day when the team was here he had us all go up one by one and take questions about ourselves from the class. For the common question “What do you want to be when you grow up?” many of them answered things like doctors or lawyers, and it made me sad because even for me, someone saving money for post-secondary, with decent marks in school and determination, those jobs seem like a lot of work to attain. Kids from Bhekulwandle aren’t going to have the resources to follow their dreams, whatever they may be and it makes me so sad. With my own graduation fast approaching, I still have no idea what I want to do or how I’ll get there, but no matter what I do, I’ll be able to have the resources to support myself and live comfortably my entire life, which unfortunately, might not be the case for many of these future adults that I see every day. These kids have such awesome spirits, and the people at the Seed of Hope are teaching them well, so I hope they make it.

Last week was the last week of children’s programs, which was sad because we’ve loved getting to know the kids and play with them every day. I’ve become good friends with some of the girls, and they have fun playing with and braiding my hair, while I try not to cry and remind them that my hair is in fact attached to my scalp. The girls are so fun, and I have a couple who will come hold my hand, or turn over my arm to trace the veins in my wrist, or play with my arm hair (they don’t have any, and they’re totally weirded out by it). I’ve also really enjoyed getting to know the 11-15 year olds in Musa’s after school class. They’re such a solid group of kids, and they choose to use their own time to come to this class to learn life skills, which is cool to me, because back home, no kid would ever do that. My guess is that it’s not really the “cool thing” to do here either, so that just makes them coming all the more awesome in my eyes. They genuinely respect Musa, and want to improve their English and their futures through coming to the classes. I guess the thing I find the coolest is the fact that they’re such great friends, and I hope that they can stick together and hold one another accountable for the things they’ve learned and just be a new generation of youth and eventually young adults in Bhekulwandle. They inspire me, and I hope that they’ll do the best they can with what they have someday.  

Tonight while Adam and Lauren went to a youth dinner with our friends Jeremy and Abby, me, mum, dad, Heather and Dan went for dinner at the Galleria Mall. I love listening to Seed of Hope talk that is too mature for me, because I get an inside scoop and I’m constantly taking mental notes, and when it’s appropriate written notes, in order to remember crazy facts and pieces of South African culture that are so interesting to me. (Derek’s dad Abe called me a “Culture Vulture” once and I love it, because I’m truly loving seeing different cultures on this trip) Heather is full of stories about when the Seed started, and of the things her and Derek did in Calgary, and about all of the amazing people they’ve met. Although I only knew Derek when I was very young, it makes me wish he was here to see my parents and their family in Africa, and laugh at our Westernness and take us on wild adventures. He is dearly missed every day, but continues to be an inspiration to so many, and he lives on through his legacy in the community, and through his son Caleb.

This week flew by so fast, and it was full of school and Christmas party prep. I’m beyond excited for the long awaited party. We decorated the center today, and I got assigned the much coveted position of being in charge of the parachute games, SCORE! It’ll be fun, and I’m excited to see the kids again after a week of having to hang out with adults. I’m not mature enough for that…

So yes, 16 days left and it’s stressing me out. On one hand I’m excited. There are so many dear friends back home that I’ll be overjoyed to see, and then it’ll be Christmas, and everyone will be jolly and happy and together… So that’ll be fun until January and the cold, home schooling, everyday life of Calgary will settle in along with a crippling depression.

So I’m gonna live these last days up!!!

xo

Alanna
Adam and I doing some Christmas prep.

Wednesday, 23 November 2011

It Was an Africa Day


It began with exhaustion. After panic over an English essay that lasted late into the post-it noting, character analysing night last night, I was tired. We started the day early because Dad and us kids were going to go on our first home visit with the health care team.

We drove to the Seed and hung out there until it was time for the home visit. We were going to visit the family who just lost a mother, a member of the HIV support group at the SOH, and I could tell that this was going to be a tough morning. Since the big Buckey was not available because of a break down earlier this morning, we crammed the four of us plus Bouli, Zama, Jabu and Ethel into the tiny Avanza soon to be joined by half a dozen hefty bags of vegetables. It was cramped, but it was fun. Bouli entertained us with a round of “We Are Family” soon to be followed by Jabu’s rendition of “Happy Day” which was a million times better than the Whoopie Goldberg version in one of those Sister Act Movies.

We got word that the Buckey was free and we drove back to the Seed to pick it up. I was excited because it meant we would get to ride in the back with no seat belts! Riding in a car with no seat belts gives me a rush ‘cause I rarely do it… I figure it’s better than getting into stealing or hard drugs. Anyways, we’re going to switch cars, and Jabu, a fully grown woman in a skirt, climbs into the back, squats on a tire and says, “I wanna play with the kids! Get in here!” That woman is my hero. We got in and the novelty of riding in the back left us after 10 minutes on a bumpy dirt road. My discomfort is soon forgotten by talking to Jabu. She told us about what the Health Team does on a daily basis, and my hands were itching for my notebook I left in my purse at the Seed, her words were so wise. Basically, the ladies on the Health Team have one of the most amazing jobs in the world. There is so much lack of education in terms of HIV/AIDS information, from the government, from witch doctors and from word of mouth. One of the most heart breaking things I’ve heard is the myth that intercourse with a virgin will cure you of AIDS. So many children are abused that way… Jabu got involved with this kind of education when she was visiting a man from her church who had AIDS and his family was afraid to touch him. She hugged him and 6 months later she had a job at the Seed of Hope. Amazing.

She also told us about this particular situation we were walking into. A HIV positive support group member with three children died quickly from a bout with pneumonia, and even though she took her ARVs diligently, she was still too weak to overcome the sickness. She lived with her brother, but their relationship was not strong and he doesn’t want to take the children, and neither does the woman’s aunt. I was interested and nervous for what I would see in the next few minutes.  We finally stopped and got out with the vegetables and food hamper, and to my amazement Zama balanced the box of tomatoes on her head as she walked down this rocky dirt path. Like I said, it was an Africa day.

We walked through a ladies yard, where chickens roamed free and the dog house was made out of tarps and plastic bags. Down-hill we saw the house, made out of mud and sheltered with a tin roof, the house number was spray painted on the front of it. The neighbours poked their heads out of their doors, as they watched us enter the house. I passed my bag of potatoes to Zama and stood at the door, not sure whether or not all eight of us plus the family could fit in this two room home. Bouli waved me next to her and I entered the hut, taking it all in, but feeling like I was intruding. There was a candle lit on the floor, and a gogo (gramma) sat on the ground with a blanket around her legs, while another walked in and sat on a chair. The roof was made of tin, and I counted the holes in it on my fingers until I ran out of them. The mud walls were covered by sheets as a form of insulation, and the ground was covered by tarp-like plastic and cardboard. Immediately the Health Team began to sing. I hummed along the best I could and watched another family member of unknown relation to the deceased come in to listen. Zama sang through her weeping, and it was beautiful, the love and compassion these ladies have is remarkable. After the singing, the team each took turns in praying in their beautiful Zulu language, I only caught a few words that I recognized, “He will never leave us or forsake us”, “amen”, “faithful”. The gogo on the ground (who turned out to be the woman’s aunt) cried and then Dad closed in prayer. I’m glad I wasn’t called upon to pray, because, quite frankly, what would I say? I have trouble knowing what to say to people in Canada who lose someone they love in a non-tragic way, so how could I ever think up something here?

The ladies talked to the family in Zulu some more and as they did, a handsome young boy, maybe 8 years old came in and hugged his knees against his chest on the ground. He was the oldest of the children left behind. The youngest was 3 months old, and since they all came from different fathers, their care by a daddy isn’t a possibility. The government doesn’t have any plans in place for orphaned children like foster care, so nobody knows what will happen to these children. I can’t even imagine. The visit ended and we walked out of the home and saw another left behind child, this one maybe 2 years at the very most, and we made our way back to the car. I had heavy boots for the family, and the children, but also for my selfishness. Everything that I have ever cried over or worried about seemed not worthy; I have a loving family, good friends, and easy access to health care and education. I’ll go to college, and I’ll live comfortably until I die.

We stopped at a clinic and the high school on our way back to the Seed. The high schoolers are in the middle of their finals, and the grade twelves are doing their Matric Exams which are worth 75% of their final mark for the year. We are so lucky… 50% seems like a joke to them. If you have a bad day on the day of your final, you’re done.

We got back to the center, picked up mum and went to Woolworth’s to buy lunch, 5 ready-made sandwiches, 5 drinks, two bags of chips and two bags of liquorice all-sorts for my father (gross). It rang in at 246 rand and we made our way back to the center to eat our lunch. When we went to the staff room the Health Team was talking to a boy we’d seen on the playground a couple times, he always looks sad and we’ve taken to giving him a little extra lovin’ and smiles. We asked Ethel what she knew about the boy, and we found out some stuff that made my heart feel like it was in my chest, stomach and throat all at the same time. He technically lives with his aunt and his baby cousin, but sometimes his aunt leaves for weeks on end to live with her boyfriend and get a little extra money from him. They expect the lady to be gone for a long while come Christmas season.  While she’s gone the boy either stays by himself or with neighbours who will take him in. He’s 9-years-old at best. Without the help from her boyfriend, the lady makes 250 rand a month. The boy has a lot of sores on his head, and has trouble making friends and getting along with other kids. It was only after we let this soak in that I realized and voiced aloud “250 rand… That’s how much lunch cost.” Hmm. My boots became heavier and I needed to shake it off with some playtime.

We went outside hoping it wouldn’t rain for the 14th day in a row. I pushed kids on the swings and started a half-hearted game of touch (tag). As I was running from a kid I didn’t notice a patch of mud and slipped cartoon style onto my back with my legs up in the air. I laughed it off as I do most times that I fall and felt the wet mud caked onto my shorts soak through to my skin. I’m sure it looked super comical, but it didn’t really help lighten the mood of my day. After walking around awkwardly in dirty pants and mud on the back of my legs, we left early to give Ethel a ride halfway home.

As we were waiting for dad to finish packing up, Ethel wiped off my muddy butt with a towel; the mother in her couldn’t help herself. It would have been awkward, but in a weird way it seemed natural, she’s such a motherly figure… After my rear stopped flaking mud and we were getting into the car, one of my friends Sanelisiwe came up to me and said “Have you remembered my promise?” I took her face in my hands and said, “I’ll bring it to you at the Christmas party as a treat, okay?” You see, yesterday I made a rookie mistake; I wanted to give a gift to a kid. It doesn’t sound bad, but it’s complicated. Yesterday Sanesiliwe grabbed my hand and was admiring my bracelets,

“Can I have one?” she asked, “Please, please, please??”

“I don’t want to give one to you if I can’t give one to everybody!” I told her, she has a sister and I wouldn’t want there to be any sort of awkward favouritism.  I should have just left it at that, but then I remembered the gift of a rope bracelet my friend Jorge gave me before I left, telling me to give it to a special kid. I saw a future leader in Sanasiliwe, and I liked her a lot, so I told her “You know what, I do have a bracelet I can give you.” Her persistent asking caused me to promise that I would bring it to her. Now I have the burden of finding a discreet way to give her a gift without hurting anyone… It’s a weird thing we’ve had to deal with a lot so far, actually. I dunno. It’s an Africa thing for an Africa day. Not super important of life changing, but something on my mind.

Ethel didn’t want us to drive her all the way to her house, but we cut down her walk a tremendous amount. The taxis don’t go all the way into her neighbourhood, because despite her being black, she lives in a primarily white neighbourhood and they don’t like the taxis in their area. The taxis stop at least 2 km from where we dropped her off and she told us that she sometimes walks it. We were amazed at that, and she told us “The Seed of Hope touches me too much for me to worry about how I get there. The children, they touch me. It is so important.” And it’s true, it is. The staff at the SOH, and especially the health care team, do so much on a daily basis! It’s not something they flaunt at staff meetings, they don’t scream out “Two people are now educated about HIV and three accepted the Lord!” even though they have the right to do so. It’s just a part of their job. This amazing stuff that would have made last year’s camp director shout for joy and send an e-mail to the board. It’s just their life, and it’s beautiful and sad and inspiring.

We dropped Ethel off, went back to our apartment where I changed my pants, and were off to the mall to shop for games supplies for the Christmas Party next week. I thought about the things I saw today and let them soak in. It made me sad in a way that made me nauseous and made me want to literally puke up the dinner half of the kids on this continent didn’t get tonight. I have so much, and so much will be different and changed when I get home. There is so much stuff in my life, so many material things and so many first world problems that don’t matter. All of a sudden, so much doesn’t matter. It began to pour as we left the mall and I thought about the holes in tin roofs, and boys by themselves, and houses made out of mud.

So that was a day.



Wednesday, 16 November 2011

God Being Faithful to Faithful People

Written November 13th 2011 7:53 pm from Cape Town South Africa

Look at the nations and watch--and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told. Habakkuk 1:5

Tonight we drove to Pastor Stu’s Uncle Peter’s new church building. Peter is about the sweetest old man ever and I’ve fallen in love with him and his wife a little bit over the past two days. I saw pictures of the old building last night, a shack made of metal and wood and plastic, so I was looking forward to seeing the new building. We drove off of the highway and into a community of shacks and buildings that resembled forts I had made as a child. I didn’t believe that buildings like this existed, or rather; I couldn’t believe that there were people that actually lived like that. I thought that those kinds of buildings were just sets that the people at World Vision made to get people to call, but they were very real and very sad. It’s crazy to think that there are millions of people living like that. I’ve always considered my family, life and living situation to be average until this trip, but now I know that that’s not the case at all, we’re so rich and blessed beyond belief! We have everything.

Driving along the streets was completely frightening at first, the look on people’s faces as they saw a train of white cars filled with white people entering their community was nothing but confusion. I wish I had the ability to write about and accurately describe all of the things I saw and felt, or that I had the courage to take pictures on the drive in but I didn’t. The houses were heartbreaking… They are pieced together from scraps, and from what I was able to see through open doors, they usually consisted of only one room.

The streets were littered with trash, people, dogs and children, teens sitting on the ground around a hookah, little boys running around holding hands, pre-teen girls in too small shirts, cross-eyed men talking to themselves and the half empty bottle in their hand. Some kids swarmed our car screaming “CANDY! CANDY!” while others stood on the side of the road waving and getting excited over our returned waves and smiles. We were certainly out of place, and certainly noticed. A little boy, maybe three years old, handsome as ever stole my heart and then broke it as he waved to us by himself from the side of the dirt road. He is the only picture I brought myself to take on the drive in.

As we turned a corner, the church came into view and I lit up with excitement. Like a light in the darkness, this cement building amidst the shacks stood proudly! What wouldn’t seem like an important building anywhere else looked more beautiful to me right then than any Notre Dame or Westminster. This thought only became truer when I saw Peter’s face beaming as he looked proudly upon the building that God had blessed him with. Seeing him and his wife Sybil talk with some of the locals I was originally sketched out with was inspiring, as they had clearly done good work building relationships in that seemingly broken community for the past 17 years. It was truly God being faithful to his people, and like the Seed of Hope, I could feel this church making a difference in the community. It was something that made Habakkuk 1:5 seem like it could apply to my life right now as it is. There are things going on not only in that community, but in the country of South Africa as a whole that I can’t even imagine!

Peter excitedly showed us his church, and I got a little teary as I saw how much this old, good and faithful servant was doing in a hurting area. Pastor Stu too seemed to be brimming with pride and joy for what his dear friend had done and had yet to do. Stu prayed for the church and for Peter and Sybil and I left feeling hopeful for the community I had just seen.
There was so much joy and potential for joy in that area, where neighbours looked after each other, churches were built, and where kids grew up. There is so much possibility for good when communities are encouraged to do good and to build themselves up from the inside out. Like we’ve learned at the Seed, our Western ways of helping can be hurtful, and this church was an example of how equipping a community to do great things and become great people makes so much more of a difference.

Despite all of the brokenness, segregation and violence associated with thoughts of South Africa, love is one of the first things I associate with what I have seen of this country so far. There’s love in Jabu’s voice as she sings praises from her toes, love in sweaty, snotty-nosed kids holding my hand, in cement buildings among shacks, in sunrises over the ocean, in Zulu prayers, in Buli’s curry and in cloudy mountains. There is so much love and so much hope.

Sunday, 6 November 2011

A wimoweh

If you know me well, you know that I don’t really enjoy animals. It’s not that I don’t think animals aren’t cute or anything, but I don’t really find pleasure in petting a kitten, and seeing people kiss their dogs makes me want to vom. It’s just not my thing. Despite these facts, I sincerely enjoyed our time in Umfolozi Game Reserve these past couple of days, because unlike with people’s pets, I wasn’t peer pressured into petting them or sucked into looking at dozens of pictures of them dressed up for Halloween on friend’s phones.

We left Thursday afternoon with the Skyview Church Team and Scott our animal expert/braii master (Scott works at the Seed and a braai is like a barbeque with less potato salad and more meat than you could ever imagine) It’s about a three hour drive which was long and hot, but full of fun and fighting between dad and I over whose music would be played in the car… “Music died in ’89!”… That’s his only argument.

Anyways, 5 minutes into our time at the camp there was a warthog sighting followed by a chorus of “a wimoweh a wimoweh a wimoweh a wimoweh” in one of our first numbers from the Lion King Soundtrack. It was impressive. We saw a few more animals on our way into the park which was cool, but not nearly cool enough to be mentioned in this paragraph. We got settled in our chalets which were super nice and lovely minus the bugs and the unidentifiable cat sized thing that jumped on Shelina in the middle of the night. We had a braai prepared for us by Scott which was quite impressive because preparing a braai is an art form. It requires skill, timing and a great resistance to the meat sweats.

The two full days we spent there were long and filled with driving and animals, some of my favourite moments included:

-          Our up close Rhino sighting: We saw a whole lot of Rhinos on Friday, almost to the point where we were becoming Rhino snobs and we were caught saying things like “Come on, another Rhino?! I’m sick of seeing Rhinos.” But at the end of the day, there were two giant Rhino’s on the side of the road that we were literally 20 feet away from. It was both terrifying and exciting and I got some golden pictures that will be shared on facebook in the near future. So awesome.

-          Elephants: They are HUGE and beautiful and so scary up close. We witnessed one of them knock down a tree and it made me a little worried for our safety in our tin can Avanza.

-          Lions: Dad had been to the game park twice before and had yet to see any cats, so I wasn’t holding my hopes high for anything, but we saw 4 lions Saturday morning at about 6:30! There had been a kill nearby and there were vultures circling, hyenas and lions watching it all unfold. So wild.

-          Cheetahs!: At this point we had seen Elephants, Lions, Rhinos, Water Buffalo, Nyalas, Wildebeests, Giraffes, Zebras and so many other animals, that we felt like we had gotten our money’s worth. But then all of a sudden out of the blue we got the bonus of three cheetahs sitting under a tree. They are so lean and so beautiful and they really gave me a new appreciation for non-human life. Haha

All in all it was so great and crazy to be 20 feet from animals that could kill you if they wanted to. We also got to know the team better, now I know that Gary Henderson is a mad man and totally fearless (which I’m not always convinced is the best thing for his safety. Ha!)  And Shelina is a lover of animals and can remain totally calm when faced with what could be a traumatizing event. It was such a blast and I can’t wait to come home and bore you all with a million pictures of animals you don’t care about! And then to make it fair you can show me pictures of your pets!

xo

Alanna